I remember someone I used to know last dinner as I was
mixing the spices and sauce (he was the one doing it for me given that he knew
my taste.) Throughout the dinner I think about him unintentionally. I tried deflecting
my thoughts to someone I am involved with recently but the old memory was so
powerful and won the race to my hypothalamus. I wondered why the food tasted
salty when I anticipated a sweet and sour taste. It took me some time to
realize the presence of my tears that I tasted. I lost my appetite in eating
even delicious foods were served. I turned away from the table, surprised by my
inability to know how I felt for that matter. It was something I hadn’t been
ready for.
I switched to eating oatmeal before going to bed. I snuggled
up in bed early to avoid further heartaches when out of the blue our common
friend called me. We talked almost 2 hours and in that 2 hours we talked about
him, gladly that I made a triumphant exit for that topic. When the call ended
around 10PM, I forced myself to sleep when again my boardmate played the song
that reminds me of him. I covered my ears with pillows for me not to hear it. I
played “payphone” using my cp and set the volume to maximum level. Again I made
it. Then I switched my phone to FM station and listen to Dr. Jack. I became
speechless when Dr. Jack’s caller divulged his 1st name…..same name
with the one who bothered my mind that time. Fate tested my strengths & I
hate it. With those coincidences, insomnia rejoices its victory. I was having a
hard time to sleep. I sneaked down to have some smoke hoping that it would
somehow recover some of my composure. But as I lit a stick of Philip morris, holy
shit I remember the third party.
Kalokohan!!!Just sharing! I cannot just dismiss such odd. Tsk tsk.
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